Removal Surgery is Set

We will be at the Hospital in Birmingham at 8 in the morning. That means we need to be on the road at 3 in the morning. I will not sleep tonight. I will try but it will not happen. I will however lay and rest as early as I can. Probably around 9 tonight. I have somethings I must get done after the kids get home tonight. I have the all squared away. I know who is going where and when and with who. Everyone is taken care of. I just need to pack and get there before I explode. My anxiety has gotten really bad this month. More than ever before. I know it has more to do with me than Haleigh actually having surgery, but it still makes it worse. I will survive this though. Haleigh WILL be fine. We will go, have the expander removed, have (we hope all) her nevus removed and then we will home the next day. She will not have any problems. She will be ok, I will be ok. We can do this, I GOT THIS!

A mom thing.

My anxiety has gotten bad over the past year. With everything that has happened with in our family, there is no doubt to why and where it come from. However it is debilitating none the less.

I did well through Haleigh's other surgeries. Even through the emergency one when she had an infection. I held it together and got through it well. 

Then there is the upcoming surgery. I have been having a lot of anxiety over this one. I shouldn't though. It's not more difficult than the others. She will still only need one night in the hospital. We will still travel home the day after. The same people are taking care of her. I know she is in the best of hands there and yet I find myself worried to a point of sickness. I control it well around Haleigh, but I am scared. I just want her to be ok. I want it all to be over and done already and I want to know the complete out come. Yeah I'm impatient i know. But this is my baby. I've had bad dream all week. I can't sleep. 

Please Lord take this worry from me. 

Amen